When I was in my twenties, I had this dread of turning into my thirties. I don’t remember why, though. When I was thirty, I became a mother and that was the most exciting year in my life. Soon after that, I realized that thirties have been very good to me.
Today, I turn 36. I’ve been receiving well wishes and greetings since this morning. I’m so so so happy and thankful for my family, friends, colleagues as well as blog readers. I just want to say THANK YOU to each and every one of you.
As another birthday approaches, I find myself thinking not about what I want, but rather what I’ve been blessed with in my life. This may just be another muttering of a woman approaching her middle age, but as far as I’m concerned, every day can be my birthday if I’m happy and healthy.
For a start, I think I’m largely comfortable with who I am. There are no more struggles to accept myself, my weaknesses and my physical appearance. But as compared to few years ago, I feel that I’ve aged quite a lot this year, mainly due to the side effects from the medication that I’ve been taking since last year.
I love my son so much, and I understand my family, friends and loved ones even more now. I’m appreciative of their roles in my life. As a person, I can see that I’m more understanding, more loving, and definitely far more accepting and non-judgmental than I ever was.
When I think of being 36 again, my thoughts are …
… just 4 more years and I’ll turn 40!
… I wish that Wegener’s Granulomatosis will go away.
… I wish that my abdominal fat will go away too.
… I wish that I can still have a baby one day.
… I want to live my life to the fullest.
… I still have a lot of plans for myself and my family.
Our original plan to go out for a birthday celebration was cancelled at the last minute as Edison was down with a fever (suddenly). He went to bed early, and that explains why I’m here – sitting in front of my laptop and writing this post on my birthday. Quite an unusual activity to do on a birthday night, though.
He made this birthday card for me after school today. I’m so touched and I almost broke into tears. It’s definitely the BEST birthday gift I’ve ever received!
Ten years ago, I couldn’t possibly get this card. So, the thirties is definitely a better place for me than the twenties. Yes, it will always be.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!