I’m feeling troubled ever since I received that phone call three days ago. I know this day will come eventually, but I don’t expect it to come so soon. I try not to be emotional. As the saying goes, every meeting will end with parting. I just have to take it positively.
I can’t elaborate much today until this ‘issue’ is resolved next week. Sorry to keep you in suspense, I promise I’ll share with you once it is over.
I’m going to explode very soon but I can’t tell anyone about this. I’m feeling terribly guilty although it is not entirely my fault. There are so many decisions made that are beyond my control. Before I explode, I called my mother and we had a good half an hour chat through the phone.
The only person I can confide in is my dear mother. She understands what’s in my mind and she gives me valuable pointers on how to deal with it. She lifts my spirit instantly.
I need more strength. I hope these two weeks will be over very quickly. I look forward a peaceful and joyous Chinese New Year. T______T